Since B revealed in an Japanese Radio show that his favorite Japanese food is Shabu Shabu...I had been thinking of Shabu Shabu all the time. Later, carbonkid70 , in her fanfic Under the Influence, let the boys eat Japanese food. Then I kind of can't let go the craving for Shabu Shabu. Finally I found a Shabu Shabu restaurant that serves decent Shabu Shabu & Sukiyaki in Shanghai. Here's a trip to AQ Shabu Shabu with fellow Molsdal girl lanying_sanny.

( Shabu Shabu is heaven sent. )

Got the application materials for Boston U & Syracuse U done just now. Boston asked for an international student video to be sent over and I'd never wanted to shoot it till this afternoon...and I literally spend 4 hours with my Spacebaby Steffie, tried every means to make it...

There is a software called "photobooth" provided in MAC OS for the webcam. The length of the required video is around 3 mins. I cant remember how many times exactly that I have tried to record this video by the retarded software. The results were either MUTE(yes, i totally didnt get it, it just happened from time to time that my laptop would mute my video shoot...) or not fully recorded (e.g. supposed to be 2'55'' secs, only 1'25'' was recorded)...and it totally fucking damn drove me mad. I have been finger-crossed, preying in mind...and it didnt work at all.

And I cant fucking believe that I fucking wasted 4 hours on this stupid doing and wore myself out...finally I had to give up, tears tumbling in eyes, my eyes hurt, my throat sore and my head throbbing...and it's all my SPACEBABY STEFFIE's doing, wait a sec, Stef, are you jealous of me re-paying my attention to Brian? Oh no, I swear I just need a new iPod. (I used to name my iPod "Brian". ended being stolen, period.)

I could even, feel the pain in my ass. indeed, that's how you feel when you are really exhausted and desperate.

Then I tried cellphone and it didnt work either, cuz I look pretty wasted on the extremely small/low-fi video and I'm sure that anyone who watched me like that would totally want to punch me in the face...how could I send this over to the graduate admission committee of my fucking DREAM SCHOOL?!

Thus, I fucking ended borrowing a digital camera from my neighbour...mine doesnt feature the "filming" function, FUCK 40D...I want CANON 50D...*tears*

anyway...it's done.

and fuck, I so realized that I'm desperately in need of a new iPod classic. I cant take the life w/o music anymore(cuz i dont have any of my blog services within the past 6 years w/ me and I guess it works as 火上澆油). I need it. That's it.

Tomorrow I ll head school to mail all the materials away...and set off writing up two essays for finals, maybe preparing for a final next Mon too. It depends.

*feels the need to get some Molsdal sugar pills*
*runs off to youtube*

一直想找一個可以替代blogbus的中文blog，但仔细想想，只要是中文，似乎就有被和諧的危險⋯⋯

omg, this is ridiculous...i was thinking about moving to db-db.com but the yearly limitation is 100 entries, if you want more, you gotta pay for it...for other blog services, either unstable or the page format is unacceptably ugly, like sinablog or sohublog...shit, i'll never "condescend" to use any of them.

blogcn has been temporarily unwell since its updating on jan 4th... so basically, it's not available at the moment, too.

I have been writing blogs for more than 6 years and all my old habits now get shattered: I am far from being used to livejournal and I miss BLOGBUS & yo2 like hell. 

blogspot would make a good choice only if it was not blocked in China, all my fellows in Mainland China wouldnt be able to read it....= =

well, there's no other choice left for me.

中國的童鞋們，我們抱成團來哭吧⋯⋯

聽說今天nme也一陣一陣的抽風⋯⋯all credit to the documentary "when the dragon swallowed the sun"...Radiohead, especially Thom Yorke, well, I guess we ll never get the chance to see him live in China when he's alive.

anyway, i only fucking want my blog back. please, twitter, facebook and youtube as well.

Blogbus就這麼杯具了一剛。

幾天不寫blog，居然覺得渾身不舒服。難道blog要在ipod離開我以後也離我而去麼？可不可以不要這麼殘忍阿。

imdb今天也被封掉了。

我們還是集體移民去火星算了。

這日子沒法過了。

好像是我和Cora一起去看CEBO的一個LIVE。我們兩個似乎是VIP，被允許站在臺邊看。Stef穿了白背心，左手上戴著三只銀色的手環，Brian穿著黑襯衫，還留著馬尾，Brian的脖子上有一個很大的銀環，右手上也戴著三只銀環，跟STEF一樣。

然後貌似是演出快完的時候，我走到STEF面前，把Brian脖子上的環環搶過來帶在了STEF脖子上，然後又把BRIAN手上的鐲子也搶了過來。這個過程中STEF一直在對我笑，我也沒注意BRIAN的表情，一個勁地在看STEF，心裏想得是，啊，好像哪吒啊。

我現在強烈的覺得，那個環環，是乾坤圈吧……至於長槍，難道是用貝司替代了麼。

然後我有拉了拉Stef的白背心的兩條帶子，讓它們看上去服帖一些……接著坐回了臺邊。

下臺的時候，先是BRIAN然後是STEF從我旁邊走了過去，頭上帶著BRIAN平時戴的一定禮帽，下面壓著的是……一條圍巾，垂在臉上= =啊，難道那個是渾天綾麼？！



我囧了。

接著發生了更囧的事情。CORA直接往後臺躥，我身體往後稍微靠一靠也能看到後臺的模樣：似乎是某個人的家裏，很昏暗，有一個小閣樓的樣子，所有人都上了閣樓。CORA往深處去，我讓她小心。這時候我聽到BRIAN在說，快點上臺。

然後我醒了。

這個夢本身說明了幾件事情：

1. 我絕對是想MATT了。因為MATT很喜歡STEF，而她的MSN頭像一直是哪吒自刎……

2. 我想也許真的我是喜歡上STEF了，而且潛意識裏喜歡的比BRIAN要多。因為我把BRIAN身上的環移動到了STEF身上……argh, this might have a slight sex connotation?! 嗯，我覺得有一定道理吧。

Finally the hangover is over.
After 9 hours of sleep, it's gone.

It felt much like...my brain was a bulk of swollen sponge soaked in sea water, throbbing under my skull. And I had no idea what to do with it. Couldnt wave the pain away. couldnt sleep sound.

I was shivering in the bed. and that scared me a lot.

Finally i fell asleep. thanks god.

and I'm leaving for class soon. The teacher ordered everyone who's absent for the class before the golden week holiday to give an explanation. how silly. you knew clearly why we were not there. partly becuz of the golden week, partly out of your lousy teaching method. well, i understand that sometimes ppl love to make themselves embarrassed and enjoy torturing others for some reason we dont know.

but it feels really different w/o going to office. I do enjoy the peace in mind and the precious chance to live on campus with my best frnd and roomies. usually there's so much work to do that seems a bit bothering. now i see good in not having a decent job. XD

within two weeks i'm gonna take my second shoot on TOEFL test, I'm not ready for it at all. need to work hard on each sections, esp. oral and writing. I just cant stand scoring 22 for oral and 25 for writing, that's kinda insult. and that shameful 26 for listening, darn, how could i miss the fist conversation last time i took it...i simply took off my headphones cuz i thought it's all over but it's merely the first section...god damn it. this is not gonna happen for a second time.

anyway. it's not very brilliant for me to waste time anymore, need to pull myself up a bit though I'm not in a good condition.

It's just life or something we named it life. life is tough but by no means can you avoid facing it. and if you have to, face it with courage.

 My ever-first log on Livejournal...well never thought i would have to create an blog in eng. but it seems rather necessary now.